I personally don't want you or anyone to read this, and for that reason, I have used a black background and white text with no CSS and only HTML unlike the real webiste could have been like click here for homepage I prefer to keep myself private and wouldn't love to let anyone know my thoughts and past actions. Besides, if I were you, I wouldn't waste my time reading about someone whom I don't even know or haven't heard of from someone I know...
I am a highly private person who prefers to stay behind the curtains—or, to put it simply, I prefer to stay in
the shadows.
(Spoiler Alert: I ain't gonna reveal my identity, only metadata about me.)
Then, we have some interesting questions, like:
What is one's identity? How does someone prefer to be identified? And why does that matter the most?
I don’t want to talk about how many books I’ve read or what intellectual state I have achieved or failed to achieve…
I am just a simple person with an unquenchable lust for knowledge. (I grew up reading about Isaac Newton and preferred a highly solitary environment. Although I had friends and family, I always preferred to stay alone, read books, and learn things on my own. I hate— I repeat, I hate— coaching classes and schools. I am not gonna send my kids to school. They make you dumb and turn you into a slave to the system—which isn’t entirely wrong, but their approach of “not allowing you to think or question WHY???” is something I could never convince myself to accept. And that’s totally okay because not everyone is supposed to “learn or show curiosity.” For the sustainability of society and the existence of stability, we need people who “only serve” without questioning. But I’m sorry— I didn’t want to be a part of that…)
I always refused norms, conformity, and chose to study only what I loved to read. Here, for me, the definition of “love to read” is not “simple to read” but a subject that allows me to “question, think, and implement.” After Class IX, I stopped paying attention to what my school called “science” because it soon became something like “read and remember” rather than allowing me to question “What is Thomson’s model, Rutherford’s model, and Bohr’s model?” I wanted to ask so many questions, but nobody cared. Besides, I didn’t have access to the internet back then.
I had a lot of questions, but they all went to the bin with the response: “It is not what they will ask in the question paper.” Even now, it angers me. But there were a few things that intuition and imagination could solve, and that’s how I fell for Newton’s Laws of Motion.
Despite all this, I couldn’t love science as a whole—just a few chapters. And guess what? I never studied the rest. Like, never. I only studied what I could understand with my intuition and imagination. Since I was fond of electricity and electric motors (I had sold my battery + UPS = mini inverter when I was in Class VIII—I was already into electricity), I had always asked my father, “What if I provide electricity to everyone?” thinking I would end up using wind generators. Nobody believes me, but I had felt the first law of thermodynamics in Class 4—because I could never manage to make an LED glow without relying on something that continuously produced electricity. I read only the chapters on electricity, electronics, and magnetism. (I couldn’t understand magnetism back then. I was like, “What? Current through a copper wire? Isn’t that like shorting a circuit?”—even though I had already felt Lenz’s Laws. And when it was finally taught in school, I was like, “Come on, this is my law!”—so naive 😭). I also envied Nikola for doing what I wanted to do. This includes Elon’s TSLA company also `X` was my favourite variable and I wanted to have a company called X anyways as I wanted to build an electric car—turns out, it wasn’t that easy though…
By the time I reached Class X, I was completely obsessed with Geometry and Mathematics. I scored 100% and taught myself whenever I could find any new book on mathematics. (I didn’t have access to books, by the way. It was a B.Sc. neighbor who let me shuffle through his books, of which I could understand nothing except derivatives and limits.)
When I started Physics in Class XI, I switched to Mathematics because I didn’t want to simply memorize formulas without actually understanding the mathematics behind them. And that’s how I fell in love with Calculus—which had a lot to do with my admiration for Sir Isaac Newton.
Did my engineering, which I wanted to drop out of, but my parents refused and taunted me, saying, “You can’t do anything.”
In the same semester, I passed Mathematics with 59/60, while I scored 21/60 in Chemistry (passing requirement = 20, so I passed). But there’s a story to this— even though I knew we had “Chemistry exams tomorrow,” I studied nothing but Engineering Mathematics. Since the first paper was Mathematics, and all students had submitted their books to the library, this was an opportunity for me to get my hands on books I couldn’t find throughout the semester.
After passing the 1st Semester, I received plenty of taunts from almost everyone. So, I decided to prove that I can do it—it’s just that I don’t want to. In the 2nd Semester, I scored 8.78, and in the 3rd Semester, I scored 8.48, becoming the second topper. Then, I lost interest in the useless “rote learning” method and started studying Heat Transfer and Thermodynamics.
At one point, I became completely obsessed with working on Goldbach’s Conjecture and the Prime Number Theorem. This was also when I learned C-programming, thanks to my roommate helping me with C.
I passed a stupid entrance exam but got a job at an MNC. I continued improving my coding skills, started trading, and began learning about:
I was completely changed and didn’t want to go back. It was a point of “inception,” and I had discovered a lot of things…
The only reason I could understand almost everything was because of:
I didn’t choose to chase money or anything at all. I stopped trading after realizing that:
I realized that daily trading is not something I should lose sleep over. I started trading once or twice a
quarter, waiting for IT-sector quarter earnings.
But that’s not what changed me…
It was Hindenburg Research on “Adani’s Biggest Corporate Fraud.”
The very day I bought and started taking my positions, I lost ~20% in one day—but the day after that was GOLD
CREATION. The stock was down 35% (lower circuit), and I printed money. I opened seven bank accounts after
that…
And after visiting my friends and colleagues, I resigned from the company. (They were all good people.)
But this “greed” couldn’t change my identity. I realized the power of computers and the potential of human greed. I started learning computer programming like a real hacker.
I didn’t spend my time like those “Google job seekers on LeetCode.” Although, in between, I used to solve problems on Project Euler (projecteuler.net), I was much more into “learning how my computers could do the trading.”
I bought laptops, started working on Linux, and after watching “Revolutionary OS,” I started learning about kernel programming. (I didn’t push myself into building an operating system, but this changed my perspective towards computers—whether it was Unix, Windows, or FreeBSD Mac.)
I realized that you can hire people to take care of these things; what you should know is “how the system works and how to successfully create a team.”
To better interact with people, I started learning different programming languages. In between, I took another job where I worked for the company 7 days straight. I was a complete workaholic—I preferred to sleep in the office. (I mean it—I used to sleep in the office on Saturday and Sunday and would leave only on Monday at 21:00.)
I taught myself everything about the “how” and “why.”
During this time, I also worked on the Black-Scholes formula and understood the desperate need for “developing
our own CPU architecture rather than simply relying on Intel, AMD, or Apple Silicon.”
Although this was purely theoretical and I lacked the expertise to comment on it, it was never a priority for
me. (It was more of a question— How can we gain an edge over other hedge funds or our competitors when we simply
can’t always rely on C++ or algorithms?)
As of now, I still haven’t learned computers in their entirety. (I resigned from my previous company and am currently working on CPU architectures—studying from Von Neumann to modern computers. I don’t know much about quantum computers, though…)
I’m also exploring “Bare Metal Programming” and “ASM.” I wanted to publish papers on Germany’s cooperative
banking culture, but I dropped the plan when ArXiv required college and professor affiliations. So, I decided to
publish using blockchain and checksum validation instead.
I have also been studying “Central Bank Digital Currencies” and “How Central Banks Came into Existence.”
This led me to revisit Bitcoin’s white paper, which I had read years ago but never truly grasped the importance
of—until now.
That same day, I asked myself a few Boolean questions:
BUT FORGET EVERYTHING—I WANTED TO INVEST IN COMPUTER INFRASTRUCTURE. The infrastructure that giants are using to run blockchain and mining. And so, I started buying them…
I also channeled a sum of my money to fund “Project Halley,” where we aimed to build computer infrastructure for rocket launching and space monitoring companies. (I failed badly, but it wasn’t just about space curiosity—it was also about building or owning infrastructure for the investment firm I was trying to start.)
I also helped with assembly election promotions by creating campaigns and hiring cheap labor for my client—who won the election.
As of now, I am still working on computers and programming…
If you have watched the movie Pi (1998), then you might have an idea of what I am talking about.
There is this guy, highly obsessed with mathematics, desperate to solve something—or to simplify, he wanted to solve the Stock Market. The film has its own way of portraying obsession and the problem statements involved. They talk about numbers and whatnot, but let’s not get into that.
What I am trying to point out is that, in the beginning of the movie, this guy starts with a few rules that he grew up with and always believed in:
Therefore: There are patterns everywhere in nature.
Evidence:
So, what about the stock market?
A universe of numbers that represents the global economy—millions of human hands at work, billions of minds. A vast network, screaming with life. An organism. A natural organism.
My hypothesis:
Within the stock market, there is a pattern as well. Right in front of me. Hiding behind the numbers. Always has
been.
A few more lines from the movie:
“I’m trying to understand our world. I don’t deal with petty materialists like you.”
Marcy Dawson:
“It’s survival of the fittest, Max, and we’ve got the fucking gun.”
Another character in the movie, Sol Robeson, says:
What is the point of all this?
I grew up like Pi.
I have had my own Sol Robeson telling me: “There will be no order, only chaos.”
To which I replied: “I know that, and the entropy of this universe always increases—so what???”
And I have my own Marcy Dawson telling me: “To survive is to adapt.”
Adapt means to learn “how Homo sapiens of planet Earth are revolving in their orbits.”
Speaking of my real spirit:
I have always believed in this quote by Archimedes:
“Mathematics reveals its secrets only to those who approach it with pure love, for its own beauty.”
Basically:
“To solve something—independent of subject or topic—one has to get obsessed. And to be obsessed is to avoid
distraction by filtering out useless noise.”
Especially in a world filled with “non-like-minded people.”
Because by human nature, everyone tries to create their own dominance.
And trust me—I have seen it and learned it: No sun can keep shining forever.
(Think again—can you remember anyone who was always in the light?)
Anyway, this understanding helped me realize why it is not wrong to stay in the shadows.
But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t participate in the drama.
In fact, I encourage people to direct or write stories—
And let the circus begin! 🎭
I prefer big challenges—real, complex problems that take serious effort to solve...
I love computers. They are dangerously powerful. I've worked on almost all popular operating systems, from old-school ones like DOS, PDP, UNIX, and Linux distros (currently using Kali and often Arch—wanted to try Gentoo for high-frequency trading). FreeBSD? It sucks! And like everyone else, I rarely use Windows & macOS (mostly because of its BSD inheritance—man, I love Dennis' UNIX! To me, it's like a proprietary version of BSD 😅).
Programming languages? These are weapons. I've taught myself 11 programming languages, but this isn't like some kid bragging, "I know chess" just because he learned the rules. Knowing syntax is one thing, but truly understanding programming is another. I’m not that kid. To me, "knowing" is something bigger. I never dare to say, "I know this"—languages and paradigms are insanely vast.
Also, I hate when people waste their brains on LeetCode. You know what? Try Project Euler instead. Unlike LeetCode (which is just a race for scores—oh really? If not, go read SICP), Project Euler builds a problem-solving mindset. Don’t waste your time on companies that judge you based on LeetCode instead of real problem-solving skills.
If you want to become a software developer, then do it—because we need people who can grind for knowledge. I call them "smart white-collar labor."
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